Wanderlust..

… it is an amazing word.  In German you can just put two words together and you create a new one. For example wanderlust… “Wandern” means hiking or traveling and “lust” means a desire or great pleasure. Therefore wanderlust means having the desire to travel (or wander).

Recently I have felt this great desire.  All I want to do is pack my bag and hop on the next train. Not even with a clear destination. All I know is that I want to learn trough first hand experience about other cultures and other people… I want to get to know them and maybe I will find myself along the way.

But here I sit, in my room dreaming about the world out there, imagining a life I could lead and wandering if that is my fate… Being out there helping and loving others. Excepting people for who they are and learning from them instead of forcing my beliefs on them.

I want to be out there and just be me… Not having to think about what I’ll wear to school tomorrow, so our society won’t judge me. Not having to think about all the pages of history I need to remember, so I will get a grade, so I will get good results on my A-Levels, so I can study at a good university to later get a good job with high wages and I can support my future family and maintain a high standard of living.

I need to break this circle to do what I want and not what others expect of me…

This quote from Jojo Moyes in her marvelous book ‘me before you’ just got stuck in my head. It deeply touched me and reminded me of who I want to be…

You only get one life. It’s actually your duty to live it as fully as possible

Live your best life without destroying others and fill your heart with love

Just an ordinary girl

Save space

The truth. Just 2 words and so many feelings behind them. I never really thought about it in a deeper sense. I always thought of myself as a honest person, I never lied to people on purpose. But that was just about simple things.

A while ago I suddenly had the urge to tell someone how I truly felt. But then I realised that I don’t know who I should tell. With my best friend I never really talk about deep stuff. The person I talked to before doesn’t talk to me anymore (more about that in No good in goodbyes). And the girl I see more as a sister than a friend, has her own problems and every time I want to talk to her we end up talking about her. It’s so frustrating! I wanna share but I have no one to share it with! So I lie. I tell them I am just fine and bury my feelings deep inside.

So I thought about this blog I started a while ago and kinda abandoned. It was meant to be an inspiration to love but what if I could make it a save space for everyone to load their feelings of and find help and love…

Everyone who wants to can write their honest feelings and problems in an email and I will answer and share it.

Share and love…